Hurt & Missing piece

It hurts so freaking bad and I am so not freaking ok.

It has been more than a month and still, I feel like a part of me is missing.


So afraid to admit that you had become part of me, the problem is you were long gone and well... I miss that part of me!


It keeps getting worse and worse... I miss you more and more each day.
But I know you think of me less and less as hour goes by.



How do I survive this? Why can't I just hate you? Why are you haunting me?
What do I have to do to forget?

I just wanna let go.


Speaking of which, letting go had never been a problem for me. But with you, everything is different.

Maybe, a part of me knew that you would hurt me this badly since we first met. That is why it kept rejecting you. And yet you kept trying. At the end, the part was convinced that it was ok to let you in. But in reality, it never is ok.


And I was hurt, over and over again. I got weaker as time goes by. And when I needed you the most, you weren't there for me.


:(
...I cry almost every night...