I thought I was turning 25... --"
Been ซวย ชิบ หาย a little bit there and then.
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Monday, December 13, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Forward....Backward
Why ? Why doing this to me?
Why can't you just believe in us a little bit more than this?
Mayb... you are just another coward.
Mayb... I just don't give a shit about what could go wrong.
You pushed me forward; from being a just-like-sis into a just-like-girlfriend.
Now you are pushing me backward; from being a just-like-girlfriend into a just-like-sis, just exactly what I used to be.
I told you, I had told you many times before taking the step, before turning from sis into date, that being in a relationship would NEVER work for us.
Still, you didn't listen to me. You tried every possible way to convince me, to manipulate me, to make me believe that it was the right thing to do.
And when things started to get so creepy, you got scared and wanted to give up.
Yet, you still are selfish enough to want me beside you, as your sister...like nothing has happened.
(And yes...you made me cried again, on Nov30 night. How many times do you want me to cry for you?)
Remember?
You were the one to tell me that things change.
So how possibly could we be the same? How possibly could I do that?
I know I should have completely cut you out of my life.
But I am not strong enough...after what I have just been through.
So I let you keep me beside you for a little while...until I get strong enough.
And trust me, you will never be able to hurt me again.
There are some particular lines we can't cross no matter what, and you just did.
Hope you enjoy the consequences of your decision. Like the last one you had made before, a few months ago.
...I really do hope that this is a right path to choose. I seriously do.
Why can't you just believe in us a little bit more than this?
Mayb... you are just another coward.
Mayb... I just don't give a shit about what could go wrong.
You pushed me forward; from being a just-like-sis into a just-like-girlfriend.
Now you are pushing me backward; from being a just-like-girlfriend into a just-like-sis, just exactly what I used to be.
I told you, I had told you many times before taking the step, before turning from sis into date, that being in a relationship would NEVER work for us.
Still, you didn't listen to me. You tried every possible way to convince me, to manipulate me, to make me believe that it was the right thing to do.
And when things started to get so creepy, you got scared and wanted to give up.
Yet, you still are selfish enough to want me beside you, as your sister...like nothing has happened.
(And yes...you made me cried again, on Nov30 night. How many times do you want me to cry for you?)
Remember?
You were the one to tell me that things change.
So how possibly could we be the same? How possibly could I do that?
I know I should have completely cut you out of my life.
But I am not strong enough...after what I have just been through.
So I let you keep me beside you for a little while...until I get strong enough.
And trust me, you will never be able to hurt me again.
There are some particular lines we can't cross no matter what, and you just did.
Hope you enjoy the consequences of your decision. Like the last one you had made before, a few months ago.
...I really do hope that this is a right path to choose. I seriously do.
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