Duh duh,,, duh !???!

And... duh.....................

Thing is not good, between me and you.

I told you not to contact me since Sunday afternoon.
Yet, you did.

Haven't I cried enough for you?
Haven't I been hurt enough by you?
Haven't you noticed it is too much for me to bear?


But anyhow, thank you for the LOVE4 concert; it was wonderful.
I thanked for the concert ticket, not for you being there w me.

It was obvious that you couldn't care less about me; leaving me there all by myself feeling unable to fit in.


So... I guess this is really good bye for us.
I would not want to be neither your girlfriend nor your sister...or even your friend anymore.


PS. OMG it's 1.11!!!!

New Year

A bit too late for new year...
no, actually very late for new year. lol


Some things got better, while some got worse.

New things for new year;
   Glasses
   external hard-disk
   Got hair-cut.....2 inches were gone!
   mouse for labtop
   Jewelries ... lotsss, very beautiful  and indeed, expensive
   stuff from Zara sales and Workshop

But between you and me, it hasn't been better. Can't say it got worse, but it is like ...
we stuck in the middle, can't either go backward or forward.
It has been like this since December.
I don't really know what to do.

I know I should try harder to stay away from you since it cannot be worse.
But sometime I just don't wanna to care and think about what and what not to do anymore.

Guess that explains why I stuck. Shit!


I wish it was that easy to erase memories about us,
I wish history could be undone,
I wish I was stronger...

bad luck

I thought I was turning 25... --"

Been  ซวย ชิบ หาย a little bit there and then.







-,-

Forward....Backward

Why ? Why doing this to me?
Why can't you just believe in us a little bit more than this?


Mayb... you are just another coward.

Mayb... I just don't give a shit about what could go wrong.


You pushed me forward; from being a just-like-sis into a just-like-girlfriend.
Now you are pushing me backward; from being a just-like-girlfriend into a just-like-sis, just exactly what I used to be.

I told you, I had told you many times before taking the step, before turning from sis into date, that being in a relationship would NEVER work for us.
Still, you didn't listen to me. You tried every possible way to convince me, to manipulate me, to make me believe that it was the right thing to do.
And when things started to get so creepy, you got scared and wanted to give up.

Yet, you still are selfish enough to want me beside you, as your sister...like nothing has happened.
(And yes...you made me cried again, on Nov30 night. How many times do you want me to cry for you?)


Remember?
You were the one to tell me that things change.
So how possibly could we be the same? How possibly could I do that?


I know I should have completely cut you out of my life.
But I am not strong enough...after what I have just been through.
So I let you keep me beside you for a little while...until I get strong enough.
And trust me, you will never be able to hurt me again.



There are some particular lines we can't cross no matter what, and you just did.
Hope you enjoy the consequences of your decision. Like the last one you had made before, a few months ago.


...I really do hope that this is a right path to choose. I seriously do.

JJ B-day :D

HAPPY B DAY TO JJ :DDDDDDDDD

Now you officially are 18 years old (which means ---------- alcoholic stuff 5555)


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Lst week went to Khao Yai, awesome to the max.
Remind me how important friends are.
Sat - Daily home, Primo Posto, Khao Yai Kitchen, BannSaengDeun, Palio
Sun - Rai Somboon, Chokchai Steak house

Ended up so exhausted (which mean didnt go to loi kratong on Sun)
guess it was the period mixed up w oldness 555

Let's Sea ;D Khoa Yai

Finally, I got a really good deal for Let's Sea Hotel @ Hua Hin.

Thx goddddd, I finally found someone who was willing to sell me a voucher for both room and z-luxe benefit.


Two of these are cost around 5k only! Normally, without this voucher it would be around 8.5k for moondeck --"



Yeah, I don't earn that much of money yet, 8.5 k is too expensive 5555.



And this weekend I'm going to Khao Yai with girlies, can't wait

Headache =(

Had a pretty scary morning.

I guess it leaded to having headache since almost noon.


Hope everything gets better soon.



I don't think I would be able to hold it any longer.