...what?

Have you ever heard such a very unexpected phrase that you are not sure whether you have heard it right so you have to say "WHAT??"?

Situation like this has happened to me many times... but yesterday night, it was soooooooo "what?".


He (the one you know who) (who had already chose not to be with me) confessed
(after he kept beating around the bush for like half and hour so i got tired and I forced him to say it)
that ........... in his opinion, I am still very attractive and he regretted what he had said on that night.
He asked me what if that night, he asked me out instead, would I go?

So I told him that he did not get to know the answer since he had made a choice, then he had to bear with all the consequences even he wished he could turn back time and edit what already had been done.


Another interesting thing is that he told me that whenever he smells my Jo Malone, his heart beats faster. whoaaa lol I didn't expect that.


Enough with the blabbering, the bottom line is he wanted to chose me, and he wanna know whether he could or not.




Welllllllllllllllllll................ a little too late?
yep, I said no. All he gets to be is my big brother.
Leave it or take it. He took the offer anyway, even though he wanted more.



I really like having him around, I could be opened-up. I like it.
But i don't want to hv him as a boyfriend (well, at least not anymore)

So........... BIG BROTHER, welcome to the family ;D



wait, am I being selfish??
am I torturing him?? (or he deserves this??)


w h a t e v e r . . .